Monday, September 25, 2006

prophecy?

My family moved out of their house on Friday. This was the 'family home', where we had lived since 1994. This was my parents' dream house. They made a list of probably 40-odd features they wanted, and the architect fulfilled them all bar one; Mum wanted a bay window, but had to compromise with curved walls and a nearby couch. This house took five years to design and build, due to lots of rain halting construction, disputes with builders, the usual story. Plus, the house is curved like this -> ( , so it obviously took longer to make.

This house was designed around Mum's grand piano. The piano was bought with her inheritance from her mother, and is a most prized possession. However, being such a considerable size, such an item is not able to be shoved into a spare corner once everything else has been installed. Thus, the architect drew a bird's-eye view picture of a grand piano (to scale), and the house grew out from there. Additionally, the whole house was designed with the idea that when the piano was played, it could be heard from every room. And indeed it was, even downstairs in the garage. Many's the time that Mum would start playing some songs, and gradually the members of her family would be drawn into the lounge, singing along, playing their own instruments (flute, drums, percussion, guitar). (How bucolic)

On the last day that the piano was in the house, Mum played two special songs, as if to seal them into the walls which have absorbed so many notes in the past fourteen years. Those two songs were "Piano Man" by Billy Joel (Dad's favourite), and the hymn, "Great Is Thy Faithfulness" (Mum's favourite, and her Mum's [my Gran's] favourite).

There are so many specific design features I could mention, that made this house our home. Every room was designed to have at least two sources of natural light. In the lounge, there were no clocks, stereos (the speakers from the stereo in the family room were hidden up near the roof), televisions, or any distracting features, other than the fireplace and some photos of my siblings and I, and the grand piano, as well as an astonishingly beautiful view over the neighbouring bush-clad valley. My parents wanted this room to be somewhere peaceful. I think this was my favourite room of the entire house, as it was at the top of the stairs from the garage, with my parents' bedroom on one side, and the kitchen on the other - so you could always keep tabs on what was going on. Some of my most treasured memories are the times when it was raining, and I would drag my duvet off my bed, choose a favourite book, turn the big couch around so it was facing the window, and watch the pellets of water tumble down into the hectares of bush outside. Never in any other space since have I felt so safe, so astounded by the beauty of nature, so restful.

There are other things too, such as the hallway lined with little 'runway' lights; the temperamental lighting system, controlled by computer, and little 'touch buttons' instead of switches; the musty-smelling storage room under the stairs walled in by concrete blocks that I one day referred jokingly to as 'the bombshelter' - and the name stuck; the wooden floor of the games room made of recycled matai that my parents rescued from an old warehouse being torn down; the pool which you could dive into off the deck... I'm sinking into nostalgia here, which is a dangerous place to be.

The house was sold to an organisation called "Mercy Ministries" (
http://www.mercyministries.org.nz/), who provide residential care for young girls who are pregnant, have eating disorders, that sort of thing. They are connected to the Hillsong group, and my aunt knew someone who knew someone (etc). They were looking for a new place to buy to increase the amount of participants in the programme, and came to visit, just a few weeks after Mum had started thinking about putting the house on the market. They fell in love with it, and as it has 5 bedrooms (or 6 if you count the 'rumpus room' downstairs, which used to be my bedroom), could see the potential. They will make many changes, such as converting the three-car garage into a counselling room, the rumpus room into a schoolroom, and so on.

I am sad that the house has been sold, as I cherish all the memories connected to it. However, it had to be done, and I am glad that it is going to be used for good.

So many things have happened in this house. Loves, losses, laughter, parties beyond number, bbqs too myriad to count, several 21st parties, a 50th birthday party, innumerable house-guests (some staying days, others years), celebrations, arguments, tears, sing-a-longs, messes, silence, creativity.

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My Dad died in this house, on May 16th 2003, at 4:15pm. He had always said, throughout the designing, building, moving-in, settling-in, enjoying-the-house processes, "I'm never leaving this house. You'll have to carry me out in a box." It's as if he knew.

On Friday, the last time that Mum left this house, she took with her one very special item that she had deliberately left aside while everything else was packed up: the small wooden box with Dad's ashes in it. So, as she left our wonderful family home, full of so many memories and good times, she carried Dad out in a box.

Monday, September 18, 2006

work/life balance

I've been discussing with myself how to achieve balance in my life. It's hard to strike a balance in all my roles: a wife, a post-graduate student, a sister, a daughter, a daughter-in-law, a sister-in-law, a friend, an acquaintance, a law-abiding citizen (okay so that isn’t so difficult), a cousin, a niece, a niece-in-law, a thinker, a do-er, a consumer, a saver, someone who is sociable and interesting, someone who is polite, someone who is employable and a good employee. It’s hard work. And we don’t even have children.

I feel like there are so many things pulling me in all different directions: friends to e-mail, family to visit, essays to research, quality time to spend with Jeremy, visitors to host, houses to clean, food to be cooked, and a huge list of books to read before I can possibly call myself "well-read". How do I make time for all this? How do I make space for all this? I guess if I find the answer, I could write a book and make a lot of money from giving seminars on the "Work/Life Balance".

I’m getting all caught up in thoughts, so perhaps I’ll leave the ruminations for a long and hot bath later tonight, and go outside and enjoy some sun. I’m meeting Jeremy in an hour; we are going to a movie tonight. For Jeremy’s birthday, I bought him and I both “3-film sampler” tickets for the Wellington Film Society – I had to get one for myself because I didn’t imagine he’d want to go by himself. The tickets expire at the end of the year, so we have chosen our three movies, all of which are showing in the next two months. Tonight is “Manhattan” by Woody Allen. I know we could rent it from the video store, but I think I’d like to see NY in black and white splashed across the big screen. Oh how much I’d love to live there…

I’m also planning on attending another cultural event, on Wednesday night: the first of three lectures given by Professor David Crystal (UK) on the English language. Most students of English Literature have probably heard of him, or they should have; he is well-respected and extremely accomplished.
I have a two of his reference books, which are accessible. One is “Shakespeare’s Words” (a dictionary of words in Shakespeare’s plays and poetry, with definitions and line references, a concordance if you will), the other a book called “Words on Words” (a sort of meta-book, with quotes and e/xtracts and other useful tidbits on language). However, he has also written many academic texts, and VUW has brought him over from the UK to give a series of three lectures. I will only be able to attend two of the three, but already I’m quite looking forward to them.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

yatzi

This virus is wearing me out. I've mainly recovered from the various illnesses (thanks to a good strong dose of antibiotics), but I'm left feeling exhausted all the time. I usually go to bed around 9pm, or if not, sit around wishing that I was in bed, instead of whatever I am doing. Which, lately, has been some fierce tournament rounds of 'Yatzi'. Jeremy and I received a games compendium from my mum, with 15 games, such as chess, draughts, ludo, chinese checkers, you know the type. But one of them is 'Yatzi', the generic version of 'Yahtzee'. Neither of us knew how to play, but the instructions included in the box were actually quite clear, so we were able to teach ourselves. And I'll like to state for the record that I've won 5 of the 6 games we've played so far. I may not win at Scrabble but apparently I have a mean dice-throwing technique..